Yesterday, I celebrated the midsummer Litha Sabbat with my coven. We have all had a hard first half of the year. One member has been having a hard time finding work, another is battling depression, and I have been getting over a relationship that was falling apart for the last year.
It was decided that we would use the sacred fire to release all negativity from the last six months, so that we can all move forward with peace of mind into the second half of the year.
I released all of my negative emotions surrounding my break up and towards my ex partner. I also released my fear of going back out into the unknown. While this past relationship was short lived, it was still the longest I had been with anyone in well over a decade and they were the only partner I had dared to live with.
I have learned something very important about myself living with my ex partner and it’s that I don’t like giving up my personal care time, my bed, or my living space to someone who does not care about my personal boundaries, needs, and wants. I will not live with another partner again unless we are moving into our own place and we get a bed big enough for my dog to sleep with us. This is a non negotiable point as Dexter, my dog, has suffered enough the last year with sleeping on the floor (which he hates).
As I move into a new chapter of my life, I move forward with a sense of peace and determination to always put myself first, no matter the situation or circumstance.
So mote it be!